Tuesday, August 30, 2011

His first day of school

That was today. A day I have been looking forward to and dreading at the same time for months.

He was excited. SO excited. He barely ate a bite of breakfast he was so excited.

Drew took the morning off and we all went together.

Once in the class room he took off from station to station. He couldn't have hid his excitement if he tried. Finally it was time for us to go. He gave us hugs. Started to walk away and came back for more.

As I walked away from him he had a big grin on his face and I felt the first tear run down my face.

I turned away quickly so he wouldn't see me crying.

The tears fell silently as I walked up the steps. And then I hear 'Moooom' ( even with over 40 kids around I knew with out a doubt that was meant for me.

I turn around as he is bursting out the door, followed close behind by a teacher telling him he can't go out the door.

He needed a few more hugs. And this time I couldn't contain the tears.

I smiled through the tears and told him he was going to have SO much fun and I would see him soon.

I smiled and encouraged him when all I wanted to do was pick him up and run out those doors. Keep him MY little boy forever.

But I walked out. Got in the car. And drove away.

And pulled into the next driveway. Where I sat for the next 2.5 hours. In case he needed his mamma. I needed to be close by.

He didn't need me. He did great! And while it hurts my heart that I feel like I'm losing a part of him, I'm so happy and proud of him.

I know I'm not Really losing him to school. But I am loosing part of our day. For the past 4 years and one month it's been the two of us. All day. Every day. But we both need this and it will be So great for him.

PS Tonight is the last night to enter my Starbucks Giveaway , we had unexpected in laws visiting yesterday so I didn't get to it but I will draw the winner late tonight and announce the winner tomorrow!


  1. This post made me smile and tear up, all at the same time, lol. I experienced the very same a year ago. And now in two weeks, we will be walking into the doors of her new Kindergarten class. It's amazing how fast time TRULY does fly. One of the many reasons why I love blogging. One day, when he's much older ... you will be able to pull up this exact post and share with him the emotions and pride that you felt. It's amazing :)

    Have a lovely day, and congrats on the first step of 'letting go' :)


  2. Awww!! I think I will be the same way when my kiddo starts school!! I already tear up just thinking about going back into work after my maternity leave ends :( I will be sobbing that day.